Johnecia's Blog

Outcast!!!!

johnecia — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 22:13:10 +0000

When I first came to Ball State I felt like an outcast, like I didn’t belong here. The only reason why I felt that way is because of I didn’t socialize with anyone, not even my roommate. She would always ask if I wanted to eat lunch with her and I would say no. But I knew if I kept that attitude up I wouldn’t make any friends and Ball State would be boring to me. So I decided to communicate with my roommate more and took everything one day at a time. Whenever I would eat with her and our neighbors, I would not talk or say anything. It felt awkward not knowing what they were talking about and being the only black person there. I just laughed at everything and tried to fit in as much as I could. Now we are all cool, I love my roommate and we do everything together now. We are inseparable unless we are in class. I guess it took me awhile to adjust to Ball State. Not knowing the consequences of not talking to people. I was the reason for me feeling like an outcast.

Track and Field!!!

johnecia — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 22:18:51 +0000

So I have been working really hard to be on the traveling team for Ball State’s Women’s Track and Field team. All this summer I went to camps hosted by the track team, while still finishing off my high school career. Ever day in practice is a challenge for me because of all my injuries from the past. So one day in practice we were racing for spots on relays and boy o boy do I regret ever wanting to run the 200 and 100. I started of slower than everybody which made it hard for me to catch up to them during the race. I’m pretty fast but I have only ran those races once and so I’ve never been trained in those races. I wanted to become a sprinter so that I wouldn’t have to run the 800 or do cross country. But my high school coach thought I was a great 800 runner. But anyways during the 200 I sprained my knee and fell. All the other runners were worried about me but they couldn’t stop to see how I was doing. I regret trying to run and that. But as my coach always says know your role on the team because everyone plays a significant role.

Enough is Enough!!!

johnecia — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 21:16:52 +0000

I don’t know how much more bull I can take. Everyday there is a new problem for me, when will I have a good day and be happy. It always seems when everything goes good something bad always happens to me. I tried eliminating all the bad in my life and surround myself with positive people, that seemed to work for me for a while. Then I started to pray more often. At first I only prayed when something bad went wrong or things were not going my way. My mom said I should pray at all times not when the bad kicks in. And thats when I finally realized that my prayers were not being answered because I only called on him when I was in need.

Today felt like the worst day in my life. I woke up throat hurting and chest pains. Talked to my friend all day and then the guy I love text me and was really pissed at me. It was all over a picture of my guy friend and me saying I miss him. Well he is my friend and why can’t I miss. Now he will not talk to me, and I feel it’s so petty. So today I say enough is enough I will move forward with my life.I am tired of being stressed and pleasing others. I will now live for myself and make sure that I am happy!!!

My Best Friend is a Criminal!!!

johnecia — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 21:13:50 +0000

So as I was walking to class today, I got a call from my mother. I couldn’t believe what she had told me, my heart was broken. My best friend robbed someone on Tennessee Techs campus. He is not enrolled into the school he was just staying with a friend that lived in a dorm. How is that possible? Well he had access to someone’s stolen student ID card. Him and a friend were planning on buying drugs from two guys, but when his friend called and said hey they have alot of money to. So my best friend told him to bring them on campus, and they were going to rob them. So he did, my best friend took one guy into the laundry room and robbed him, and tried to rob the other guy’s friend. They had to have a lock down in dorms close to the area. My best friend was arrested a couple days later at his Mom’s house, and is out on bail right now. I don’ t what has gotten into him he is a smart, intelligent boy who loves sports. He was recruited to Eastern Michigan on a full football scholarship. Well all his dreams are over because he will be spending some time in prison.

Nasty Food!!

johnecia — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 21:17:32 +0000

Every year we have a graduation party at church for all graduates of that year. Our Pastor sister loves to cook and she always asks to cook the main courses. In her eyes she’s the best cook at New Prospect Baptist Church and no one dares to challenge her in the annually cook off. I dare not to eat her food again because it’s gross and it will make you sick. It was the summer of 2007 and she had baked tons of deserts, and side dishes. I love macaroni and cheese but that one I did not like. The noodle shells were still hard like she never boiled them, their was hardly no cheese and it had a spicy taste to it. I was so pissed because how could anyone mess up an easy dish such as Macaroni and Cheese. It even tells you how to prepare it on the back of the box, but I guess she was not paying attention to it and decided to put her own twist to it, which she should not have done. Every since that experience I will never eat at our church functions. I love my life and don’t want to die from gross food!! LMAO!!

My Research topic

johnecia — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 23:43:09 +0000

Gang and crew activities are not the only manifestations of violence in America, but they readily reflect the uneven distribution of violent acts in the nation. Criminal and violent behavior is committed disproportionately by young, poor, men of color. is the leading cause of death for African Americans, the second leading cause of death for Hispanics, and the third leading cause of death for American Indians, Alaska Natives and Asia/Pacific Islanders. reported in 2003 among 10 to 24-year-olds, 86 percent were males and 14 percent were females. than 750,000 people between the ages of 10 and 24 were treated in emergency departments for injuries sustained due to violence. in a physical fight than their female counterparts, 41 percent and 24 percent respectively. female gangs is also alarming to the violence prevention community, particularly in the District.

Among 10 to 24-year-olds, homicide10 Of the 5,570 homicides11 In 2004, more12 Young males are more likely to be involved13 The quiet escalation of. Altough violence is associated with numerous harmful effects on our children, youth, families and society as a whole, understanding its negative consequences has led to positive developments in juvenile justice, human services, health and law enforcement systems. Importantly, while the District’s experiences are consistent with the national trends in urban areas affected by gang and crew violence, the city’s relatively small size lends itself well to tackling this problem on a citywide scale.

Love Is like a battlefield!!

johnecia — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 16:55:11 +0000

Don’t try to explain your mind
I know what’s happening
One minute it’s love and suddenly
It’s like a battle-field
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world’s nothing when you don’t
I’m not here without a shield
Can’t go back now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for

Why does love always feel like …
a battlefield

Can’t swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can’t surrender
then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
I guess you better go and get your armor

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we’ll wake up and we’ll be alright
Cause baby we don’t have to fight
And I don’t want this love to feel like

I never meant to start a war .You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like …
a battlefield

Why does it have to be so hard?

johnecia — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 21:24:51 +0000

Boy am I stressed out right now. Chemistry will be the death of me. I swear I don’t understand anything in that class. My professor never explains really how she got the answer and if she does then she will do the harder way to solve the problem which confuses me more. When I ask questions she will try to help me and then say ask your friend for help. Well hell I thought she was the teacher and that her job is to help and teach students. So after getting my first exam grade back and getting an F on it, I realized that it was my best bet to get a tutor. Today was my first day in seeing my tutor. She tried her best to help me, and know I kind of get this whole Chemistry crap. We have another exam tomorrow which is to soon I think. I haven’t even taken in the things we’ve just learned in the previous sections. I am so not ready for this exam not tomorrow. After this class I am going to Chemistry help session hopefully I understand things a little bit better . I am worrying myself to much about this class. I have been unable to sleep and really eat a decent meal because of CHEMISTRY 101.

This I Believe… Draft

johnecia — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:59:38 +0000

Just a few months ago my friend and I had visited the doctors office to get our physicals for school. She was kind of scared to go and wanted to put it off, but me being the friend I am, the mother of the group forced her to go. When we arrived at the doctor’s office she became very quiet and I found her separating herself from me. I didn’t ask her any questions, but that’s when I knew something serious was wrong and it was really bothering her. “Johnecia Speed, Hi I’m Kathy your nurse.” I greeted her with a smile and left my best friend, not knowing we were both coming out with bad news. My physical didn’t take long, I was back in the waiting room in no time. There I sat patiently waiting for my best friend to come out. When she finally came out she was crying and shaky. I immediately stood up from my chair and rushed over to her to see what was wrong with her. She had a look on her face that said i don’t want to talk about it leave me alone,but I didn’t care I wanted to know. “I’m not telling you, so no need to be nosey,” I was shocked but didn’t say anything I didn’t want her to get mad at me. The entire ride was quiet until we entered her house.

When we arrived in the house I could hear her younger siblings running around the house playing flag football, and her mom screaming telling them to sit down and to go read a book. My best friend cleared her face immediately as soon as she heard her mother’s voice. Her mom came running down the stairs as soon as she heard us close the door. “Hey girls! How was the doctor’s?” I looked at my best friend and decided I will tell my experience first. Well mines was fine, I found out that I tore my mid-collateral which is located in your knee and I have to have surgery. If not I will not be cleared to play basketball or run track at Ball State and I will lose my scholarship. “O that’s bad but hey it’s good to find out now then later, said Miss Stephanie.”

This I Believe!!

johnecia — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 21:15:59 +0000

-1I believe that people should be honest.

-2I believe people should be nice and caring to other people

-3I believe people should be active.

-4I believe in some type of religion.

-5I believe that no one should be lonely.

-6I believe that people should not judge one another before getting to know them.

-7I believe that no one should cheat on their partners.

-8I believe that everyone should have some goal in life and follow it.

- 9I believe that we should reach to the stars in whatever we do.

-10I believe that everyone should have some inspiration in life.

-11I believe everyone should have a higher education.

-12I believe when someone is stress they should take some time out to just chill and have fun.

-13I believe everyone should actually listen.

-14I believe everyone should be sympathetic.

-15I believe everyone should donate to some type of charity.

-16I believe that adults should be role models to younger kids.

-17I believe everyone should live their life to the fullest.

-18I believe that everyone should love one another and not feud.

-19I believe that everyone should take care of Earth by recycling and keeping the Earth Green.

-20 I believe in family values.

-21 I believe we should cherish our lives and the people in it.